24 October 2010

In Due Time

From experience i'll tell you


There ain't no easy way out

Straight from the ghetto

I invented my route

Leaving all i knew behind

For a life unknown

Reaping different kinds of benefits

From the seeds i've sown

Faith, knowledge and trust

Could be important keys to succeed

But how does one learn to trust

When she's knocked down on her knees

Robbed of all but her inner dignity

She's learned the familiar feeling

Of greater insecurity

Pushing the broom across the floor, she must

To make a dollar to feed those kids

She don't have a bank trust

Seems so distant from reality to believe

My dreams are what my thoughts just couldn't conceive

That once upon a time, that girl was me

Harsh oh it was

No words spoken more true

I'm not gonna sit here and lie to you

This road was mad tough

There were so many times i've said

"Enough is enough!"

Please don't disect my life story

And call yourself - callin my bluff

Because when my wave reaches to you

Its gonna hit you rough

Left to her own devices

The girl was out of home by age nine

did what she had to do

Just to go to school and survive

Pushin anything, as long as she

Didn't have to push herself

Self respect was the only way

This girl had any wealth.

Kicked out of school

In her senior year

Made her wonder what the struggle

Was for, word is sincere

Not sure if there was another way

Out of this death wish

All she could do was dream

Of a life without this

"God shed light upon me and

Show me the way.

God, I wanna get out of this one day!

God help me now, I don't want to die a dealer..

God do something in my life to make

My dreams realer!

God let me look though the window

To see fresh grass and trees,

God I don't want to witness another

Necrosy!

Lord, my God, I beggeth you please!

Let me be somewhere that I can breathe!!"

To all of these prayers, my Lord opened doors

He asked me what all the commotion was for?

He said to me, Kah, what is it you want?

He said to put down the .., put down the blunt

He said live a life that was righteously so

As for some of my loved ones, I'd have to let go

Because they wouldn't change

Because of my pain,

Just look at how many times

They left me standin in the rain!

He asked was it worth going through again?

I said "No! How much longer can I sustain?"

To that my God had closed many doors

But for my children and I, He opened one more

He said its not much, to make what I can

That there was no time to put together a plan

Tis was time to put my dreams into full action

It was about time I found satisfaction

Rough times ahead, keep one goal in mind

I'm gonna reach my goals...

I promise me..

In due time.
 
 
Kahala Lei
copyright 2009

Determination

The girl is aggressive

She slept well rested

The music's invested

Trusted and lusted

Her heart has combusted

He pulled her down to the floor

She got up and said "no more"

He walked out the door

Left the kids to cry

Without sayin good bye



After years of abuse

She was not amused

The pain makes her talk

Ambition makes her walk

Automated nightmares

Do you really think people care?

No one hears what she goes through

Some even call her a fool

She continues to persue her dream

She won't lie down to die

Know what I mean?



Many years have gone by

With mental lows, mental highs

Sometimes she tries

Sometimes she cries

Sometimes she just puts it all aside



Determination

Aggrevation

Tryin to rebuild this

Broken down nation

She just can't stop

Until her body drops

Six feet deep in the ground

Her soul has been found

A calling from God

Is taking her to the top

No more will she stay

At the bottom, she prays

Rising like a hot air balloon

Nevermind the goons

Where there's a will

There's a way.
 
 
Kahala Lei
copyright 2008

22 October 2010

Life is so horrible, huh?

We all have those days where we feel like our own lives just couldn't get any worse, or even more so, we're actually afraid to find out!!!
If you've read some of my work, you'll see that I didn't have a silver spoon, a great family... lol or even a family!! But I don't generally let those historical facts hold me down.  During those stepping stone years, I taught myself with history books and by observing rich people behaviors.  Because I lived in the hood, I didn't have to observe what I already saw daily. 
We've all heard the phrase, "No matter how bad you think you have it, there's always someone who's had it worse."  Have you ever actually researched the value behind this cliche?
When people ask me how I can be so chipper and smiley, "after all that I've been through"  or  "with a life like mine",  I always think about those who have had worse.  I've read about some of them:  Jesus,  Elie Weisel,  my own grandmother Miyoko Azuma,  the people affected by slavery, Native Americans who don't even make up 1% of the population of the land that was theirs to begin with,  Rapa Nui,  Maoris,   Hawaiians before and after Public Law 103 and its content, residents of Rwanda, those affected by Apartheid, and the list goes on.
Here's a list in short of great reads that will teach one many lessons of history,  struggles,  and defeat.






 

















DOMESTIC VIOLENCE MONTH

So as we bring the month of October to an end, we also bring a close to Domestic Violence Awareness month.  What have you done?  Have you ever experienced domestic violence first hand?  Have you ever witnessed someone else be damaged by it?

I have, and I'm not afraid to say so anymore.  I am not ashamed anymore.  Pity? No.. while that could have helped then, it is rather useless to me now.  That season is now over, to never happen again.  How do I know that?  I know that becasue now I see the what the red flags are.  Now I know what signs to look for.  Now I know that I don't have to be married to raise great kids.
I had no comparison, growing up.  Having parents who both hurt themselves, eachother and the futures of their offspring, it is safe for me to say that I didn't have parents for the most part.

I didn't know what signs to look for.  My sense of the norm was warped.  I thought that it was normal to get beat for x, y and maybe even z.   But something deep down, told me that I was not normal.  Something told me that there was a whole better place in life, and that I didn't have to die to get there.  There was this little voice inside of me that said to go away, and my eyes would be opened.  I did... and they were!

What I saw was that there were people trying to protect people like me.  Although I didn't know how to get that help at first, I figured out how to help myself.  And with the assistance of many others, I was able to make the necessary changes.

Now, my new dilemna was that I had just become a mother for the third time, and was in a bad situation to do this on my own.  But now that the bus is rolling, there's no sense in putting on the brakes!  So off I went, with my three children.

So my personal story is out there.  What did I do to make a change in the lives of others?
At a young age, when I should have been in foster care myself, I became a member of a Youth Advisory Board at a runaway/throwaway home.  I was a throwaway.  I knew how these kids felt.. I could relate.  So our team built programs to support these kids: support groups to deal with home issues, peer education on many topics including peer pressure, we even built a support group for gay, lesbian, transgendered, bisexual, and confused teens.  Eventually, I served a term in every office position: secretary, treasurer, vice president and president.
From there, I moved onto the Youth Panel Against Inner City Violence and served as a panel member on the Toni Nash Show and several news conferences.  We also did our own fundraising for expenses incurred on these adventures.
As my job there was coming to an end, I moved on to an "Aftercare Program" where I assisted my peers in their efforts to re-enter society after adjudication.  We addressed the root cause of certain behaviors and how to avoid negative situations.
Having gone through much personal drama within my own family, I took some time away from my efforts to clear my own head.  During this time, I persued my music career and fell in love with Shadow; who shall forever be known as my one true love.  The night we had gotten engaged, he was brutally murdered.  Five months later, I was to find out that we would be parents of a beautiful boy.
At this point, my attention had left the music, as I had to suddenly prepare myself for single parenthood in an instance.  There were only a matter of weeks to go.  There was no support in place for this situation.  Neither family was suitable to ask for any assistance.

My idea of feeling good, only started as planting a garden with my son.  It evolved into 365 Earth Days per year, with media coverage on a few of them. This would continue until I had to run for my life.  About 5 years in time, dedicated to the environment.

Three years later, I was to go through one of the most scariest storms in my life.  There was a mutual friend of Shadow and myself, who had helped me get through it.  He fell in love, and I simply outweighed my pros and cons... "Hmm.. He wasn't the type to do this or that... I'll take him!"  Once we were living together, he began to change.  This was the beginning of a nightmare that lasted 7 years.

Yes I admit that I was not "in love" with this man!  This eventually broke his heart and turned him into the wretched beast that I would soon get to know very well.  I don't think that either of us began that journey with malice in our hearts, however it sure did end that way!  Although I don't doubt that he loved the kids, I know that his problem was losing me.  He knew he had a trophy, so to speak, and that made him very proud.  What he didn't realize was that his "trophy" was a living, breathing human being, with three children to care for.  When the relationship was long over, he began to act very erratic.  This eventually led to my children and I moving 1200 miles from home, just to survive him.

We currently assist other families in finding the help they need to make life altering positive changes such as:
- leaving abuse physically
- recovering from the physical and emotional aftermath
- job retention
- job invention (how to invent a job when you can't find one)
- replacing addiciton with positive behaviors
- fundraising for causes
- working with children, through tough times

17 October 2010

Books on Where I'm From



Dear God

Dear God,
It has been approximately 33 years since I was introduced to this world, and I would like to think that I have had an overall positive impact upon it.
Every day, I offer to you my prayers, works, joys and suffering.  I ask of you to help the world. I ask you to remain a huge influence upon my life.  I ask of you to grant us peace throughout the world, a sense of unity within our country, and to either heal or take away those in pain.
Lord, I do my best to carry out Your Divine Word,  to evangelize Your Immaculate Name, and to lead by example.
Following the repentance of my sins, I'd like to ask for enough prosperity to provide comfortably for my children and to be able to go back to school.
God, I share this prayer with those who read this blog.. because I believe that You will bless us greatly.
                                                          
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14 October 2010

Have you experienced this whole page?

Take a look from top to bottom and see what this page has to offer! There are links to a few of my shows & some of my merchandise is featured there.  To the left, you can click on any of the titles listed on where to find Kahala Lei these days.
On your way out, please take the time to feed my fish by clicking in the water and leaving the little orange dots for the fish to eat.
Thank you for stopping through! Please follow the blog to keep updated on some of the many endeavors that I am involved with.  Look out for the upcoming cd collab, due to be released in 2011.

May your day be filled with peace and love!

Kahala Lei

Who do I think I am?

aside from the chiari malformation, which is enough to cause many difficulties, but not a serious issue; I have also taken many serious head injuries. This includes all abuse when I was young and a car accident that the doctors are still baffled about how I lived. Once I was lucid again, they gave me a 10 year expiration date as a vegetable. That was 14 years ago, this past September 29th.


I can do most things that I used to, except dance and play sports for an extensive amount of time. My head and back are a constant issue. My memory suffers a little, but I won't let things hold me down for long.

In the last 4 years that it has taken me to get away from the kids' father and try to get back on my feet... I don't know what happened to me. I lost much creativity, the positive warrior attitude, and vision. I know where I am, I know where I want to be, I know that it is very attainable... I am petrified to wake up each day. I have been through a lifetime of therapy to the point that I can tell myself what I need to know, without the doctor.

I am lost, yet determined to be found.

I'd like to be a full time writer, business owner and activist of sorts. For many years, I served on the Philadelphia Youth Panel for Anti Violence. I've trained people on how to get jobs, in a program that I used to volunteer in, I am an environmentalist of sorts, and the official "kool-aid mom" of the last 3 years to many children.

Until this past July, I built and taught Christian curriculum on all levels upto 18 years of age.

Now that I do Avon, I am trying to utilize that to do fundraising in the community. They also do many other fundraisers that are not advertised, as a result of Reese Witherspoon being their spokeswoman, and what she believes in.

What I haven't yet covered, I think is summed up by telling you that I am an active boyscout mom as well. Of course, when my son has something to do, our whole family does it.

I have worked in everything from a major in retail ops & mgmt, food service, peer guidance counseling, proprietor, street lawyer, early childhood education, juvenile justice education, debt collection, job retention, custodial and many forms of art and production

I hope this gives you a better understanding of who I am.

04 October 2010

Updates from Kahala Lei

Well we know that Kahala Lei is working her stuff at the speed of lightning, these days;  with shows, both live and on BTR (also known as Blog Talk Radio).  You can tell this by her FaceBook, Twitter and MySpace updates.  With the new CD Titled Americans for Change, Kahala Lei has alot on her plate!  She apologizes for not having written in some time, as she is preparing to record, produce and master the tracks and graphics for this upcoming project.
Please take the time to visit her on Reverb Nation and see some of the work she has recently accomplished.  An easier way to stay on top of her endeavors is to join the mailing list.  Check out her store on the site, as Kah has been designing 3 major lines of clothing:
     - Poetic Urban Styles
     - Blossoming Poets, and of course..
     - The Signature Blood Money Poets line


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29 September 2010

Leilani's Poetry: My Uncle Russ

My Uncle Russ


Loving him on paper
I haven't seen his face.
Ever since I was a baby,
He's been locked up in this place.

That place is very scary
I have to admit
I don't even like
The outside of it.
My Uncle Russell
Who has big muscles:
He'll be in that place forever.
In a secret world behind bars.
Inside it really hurts me,
That he cannot be in ours.
I wish he was here for
Holidays, birthdays, graduations too,
I imagine that he would say
Two thumbs up, good job to you!!

Leilani Maui
copyright 2010

28 September 2010

Leilani's Poetry: Moments and Wind

Moments and Wind


The wind is blowing in my hair
Boys riding their bikes, here and there
This is my moment, one that I've found
Writing poetry while laying around.
A moment for just me, you see.
This is my chance to write poetry.
It was the perfect timing,
For there was nothing else to do.
So I wasn't really fussing today.
Was outside in the shade,
It was sunny, I must say.
Put on Mom's sunglasses and
When the moment ended, went inside.
To relax in the house or
Find me another past time.

Leilani Maui
copyright 2010



Leilani's Poetry: Builders

Builders


Sometimes I get so frustrated
How the builders kill the trees, I hate it!
Because the animals have no place to live,
These builders, I cannot forgive.
How much more destruction
Can this world take?
I think I'm getting a bellyache.
I'm tired of seeing animals die,
Please help me save their lives!
Tell these grown ups to just wise up!!
Break down the empty houses
and build them back up.

Leilani Maui
copyright 2010

27 September 2010

Leilani's Poetry: Fast Life

Fast Life


As much as I long to see your face,
You're locked away in that place.
For what you've done in your past
Sentenced to years, for living fast.
You should have known that life won't last.
I feel lost without him in my life.
I don't understand why it has to be this way.
This man was my dad and his decisions were bad
To think about it, really makes me quite sad.
My mom is only one person, who
Takes care of more than me and my two brothers.
It seems like everyone leans on her,
But to lean, she has no other.
Dad, why did you leave us in a position like this?
You left us without sending any help our way.
That you'll soon grow up, is all that I pray.

Leilani Maui
copyright 2010

Leilani's Poetry: Puddles

Puddles


When I look outside
After it has rained,
Cars pass through puddles
Making little waves.
I enjoy watching the birds bathe
As they fluff their feathers
And stomp their feet,
One little birdy
Stops to look at me.

Leilani Maui
copyright 2010

21 September 2010

A Young Poetess Leilani

A young poetess by
the name Leilani...

She writes about real
life. She writes of
love. She writes from the heart.


This little girl is not afraid to hit the stage and tell you what she believes in!
She thinks before she speaks, and competes for her title: A Princess Poetess.

So far, she has won the hearts of many, and at the age of 7 years old, Leilani has already been featured on 3 Blog Talk Radio shows.

 She co hosts with Lady Blue @ www.blogtalkradio.com/lynnblue on the 3rd Saturday of each month.



Leilani has won the poetry competition at
Village in Verse in Punta Gorda with her poem titled "Builders". 

Leilani has written and read a poem for President Obama's Birthday at the local Democrat Club on August 4th, 2010...

Leilani has even been dubbed a Young Democrat and attends weekly meetings to take action in her community.

Most recently, Princess Poetess Leilani has begun to attend Peace River Writer's Organization Open Mics with her Mother, Kahala Lei and performs, does the photography and charms all in attendance.

To have Leilani for a daughter is a dream come true for Kahala Lei. 


She even leaves stuff like this on Mommy's computer screen!!!



19 September 2010

My Love

Oh My Sweet America: a Multi Poetic Collab

Kah:


Stand up, Nation! Stand up tall!
Forget skin colors, look past our faults!
We've grown tired of the hatred within
Sick of watching our people deteriorate from sin
Sick and tired of being sick and tired
Tired of poverty, let's put it back on the shelf
There should be enough for us all to have wealth!
But instead, I see our country divided like war
3% gets richer, while everyone else becomes poor.

G-Roc:


America,America
what has happened to the dream we have all once chased
...has the race gone from freedom to money
has happiness been sold at the cost of our soul
still on the auction block
now it's not just the AfricanAmericans
but all races though out the country
where our streets cry blood and states search for
answer to budget crisis that are cause by the Illuminati
in politics I don't trust any body from my state rep to the leader congress
Anarchist and proud of this a man dies once a coward dies endless lives
surviving is hard when I know I am living in the end times
But what has happen to The America
where I once was proud to reside.



Michael Double G Kielanowicz:


Never been blood money poet but when I had money...
Did everything possible to blow it
Caused friction between me and God
Now demons lookin at me odd cause I praise Him
The be all end all cure for every sociological disease.....
.He's so amazing
Told me humanities worth surpassed appraising
Taught me how to heal the soul beyond abrasion
A calm cool collected Caucausian
Grew up clean cut like shavin
He ordered my steps cause my idle hands kept misbehavin
since the day I turned 18
Through grace I was saved now my flow so pristene
Verbally paint pictures like Michelangelo composed Sistene
Word plays intoxicating like a fifth of jim beam
Ain't nobody dope as me
Been an Outkast since I was a teen
See...My change was meant to be seen


Ms Betzy Hughes:


My sweet, sweet, America,
You kiss me with death while loving me in your arms!
You hold on to prejudices....
with the same affection as the right to bear arms!
You rock you children to sleep, encouraging them to dream..,.
while stealing their parents money and still,
you say....you love me!

Help the poor you cry!
Stop the violence you say!
Dream big and conqueor fear, love success, gain power!
Earn Respect, Get an education....but don't forget...
It is your money and your soul you'll pay.

My sweet, sweet America....
Are we ever going to change our ways
love the next man, your sister, your brother;
all human, different colors...we are still the same.
Colors are colors.....America!
Black ink on white paper, is better than white ink on white paper.
That is unless you don't want to reflect on the history;
the early messages sent !

Black words on black paper...no pinks, yellows, or maples.
you still can't see it then....faded
yes this country is jaded!
We work together...blended like time counts seconds
get over the hatred..
.And love free...
My sweet, sweet America.



DL Davis:


Aint it insane?
Over 400yrs...we were shackled with chains,
beat with whips and by the rope!
...we were hung.
Still we kept our hope,
...men and women...old and young.
Isn't it amazing?
Thru all that (bull ish).
We still managed to survive.
We got smart and learned how to stay alive.
In our hearts was faith and pride.
Now we walk with a new cool stride.
But slavery!! Is still one bad ride.
Now we can think and do for ourselves.
So I think, what we should do is,
take those same chains and whips
...and flip the script.
On second thought, nope.
You see, I hopefor all races
that mess isin the past.
It feels good to echo the ol' negro spiritual
FREE AT LAST, FREE AT LAST,
THANK GOD ALMIGHTY WE ARE FREE AT LAST!


Carlos George:

I’m busy yelling, “Yes we can”
Caught up in the allure as a fan
Ignorant to the fact of a scheme to undermine man
To never help me understand
How you plotting to make this your land...
Handed the people a pitchman with smooth talk to carry out your plan
Allowing our land to be taken over by bankers who wants the public
to eat out the palm of their hands
Embedded microchips through anti-epidemic needles to become a brand
Called it a flu shots with no disclaimer for side effects and all my folks ran
To keep track of your whereabouts and through GPS find where you stand
Secret societies, I am not a fan
Politicking with my comrades through this writing to get them up to date man
This is not about African-American, Anglo-American, Latin-American or being un-American
We simply have to sat aside our differences to become a true all-American
Come together for the sake of man
Just because we reside in projects doesn’t mean
we must be apart of the project plan
Stop ignoring the signs it’s more complex than democrat, independent or republican
We must venture back to the time where your son was like my son in a short span
I’m fighting for equality for the future of my seeds and the welfare of the
Youngman
But as long as you ignore and leave me standing alone won’t make anything happen
Assistance is much needed before this transition began
Using my unlimited artillery of words to bring awareness to this corruption preplanned
Let’s take back our country before its too late man!

Hearts on Paper

Such a way to express his feelings

The four year old writes poetry

In the form of hearts on paper.



He reads each line carefully

Reciting each syllable of his mind

From his little hearts on paper.




As he grows and learns, he writes

New and challenging words to rhyme

Written on heart shaped paper.



Each verse meticulously crafted

Describing his every life experience

Surrounded by hearts on paper.



Young man now, writing sophisticately

He falls in love for the first time

Poetic confessions pouring feelings out

And ends it with hearts on paper.



Kahala Lei
Blood Money Poets
copyright 2010

10 September 2010

ESCAPE

You're so fat and ugly


Nobody will ever want you

You look like a whale

You're hair is dull and black

And you don't know how to act

You're a nerd if I saw one

Head always in a stupid book

Why don't you get a makeover

Do something about your looks!

Get rid of that mug on your face

You're not walking with me

Your image is so sorry

Your feet are too big



Well somehow, enough words

Didn't get the point across enough

There was no end to this misery

Just condenscending remark, after

Put down and let down

Constant stomping on her crown

Of dignity and grace

It was no wonder she left

Never to return to that place

She grew up ashamed

Her existence was a disgrace

Afraid to hold her head up

Embarassed of who she was.



Many years later, she

Still hears those voices in her head

Blocking out the sounds

With each cry in the mirror

Dying her hair a new color to suit

Constantly frustrated over her shoes

No clothes stylish enough to

Disguise rolls of fat

She hides behind a make up mask

Hating each book, she loves to read

Not sure if she can escape the insecurity



Kahala Lei
Blood Money Poets
copyright 2010

POETIC BLISS

Thoughts of you


As I close my eyes

Dreams of you

All through the night

You represent

The world unknown to my mind

For your knowledge is such uneasy to find

Our first encounter was enough for me

You freed my soul poetically

You gave me a confidence

You've understood my pain

You've opened the door

So I'm no longer standin in the rain

Where I stood alone, you've stood next to me

When I've cried at night, you've heard my pleas



While standing by the water, after church today

I entertained the thoughts of our wordplay

I pondered and wondered what it could be

How we just fantasized poetically

We all know it was done on the stroke of a key

But in reading the work we'd swear it was more

Sounded like there was an answer when we

Knock, knock, knocked on heaven's door

Things got intense, our poetry commenced

I felt the spawn of what I dream

Burst right through my poetic seam

What have you done? I say to the screen

As it continues to show me what you mean

It pours out words that we have shared

For all to see and to compare

Now things are boilin

Gettin a lil too hot for me

This poetic wordplay

Is gettin too frisky

Its risky, situation's gettin brisky

Tied and bound by this mental tryst

Lyrically enhanced, verbally kissed

Passionately written, poetic bliss




Kahala Lei
Blood Money Poets
copyright 2010

FINDING STRENGTH

I'll find my strength


Ride out this storm

I've got my love

To keep me warm

Worse things in life

Have happened to me

Once victim of friends

Whose hearts had envy

This is just rain

I keep telling myself

Soldier of God

Inner is my wealth

Armed with soul

Kissed with fury

Charged with passion

Inside of me

I will succeed

I will wear my crown

I will not let anyone

Hold me down

Gripping my anger

Releasing the pain

This will not happen

To me again.



Kahala Lei
Blood Money Poets
copyright 2010

09 September 2010

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My Hawaiian Crown

She's a Hawaiian Queen


Derived from generations of royalty

Swaying hips to the beat of a drum

Sweet melodies of ukelele







Darkened by clouds

Of traveller's envy

Armies not large enough

To overcome defeat







Dubbed with a new flag

Marked by British and American

Colors and stripes

Not feeling their presence

Destroying our culture

Our nation's been swiped



Not willing to let it hold me down

For I will succeed and wear my

Hawaiian crown

This is my culture, this is my race

I want nothing more than

To go home to that place

Until I get there I must

Take care of mine

And understand that it will

Only be a matter of time.



Hoping for nothing more than

To Let my nation rest

Independant from the US

Shining little islands

In the middle of the sea

My heart longs to go

Where the pride derives in me



Kahala Lei
Blood Money Poets
copyright 2010

Inner Dilemma

Determined with no direction

To cure what's wrong with society

To heal the inner child inside of me

Crying, crying, a voice unheard

God's voice telling me to calm down

That He doesn't want to see me frown

To take some time to bask in His glory

Although I can't see past anxiety

Woes for the world falling apart

Tears from behind a silent heart

Yearning, unsure just how to fix



Analyzing, questioning

Attempting to provide an equation

That will become the solution

Planning carefully, unclear resolution

Utter confusion, footing for ground

People masking problems all around

Wondering why they hide it so

Shouldn't we fix it, then let it go?

Must not be the answer, you see

They respond to that question

With a common negativity

Telling me to let it be as it is

Keep moving on, regardless of stat

Somehow I feel like this is how

The world has gotten where it's at!



Continually fighting these internal wars

So I stopped to ask what's all this for?

I am only me, a person of one

How much do I expect to have done?

Every now and then I deserve to rest

Because I know that I've done my best

Yet it's hard, there's so much to accomplish

And I do it for the future of my own kids.


Kahala Lei
Blood Money Poets
copyright 2010

08 September 2010

NEW FOR THE FALL

As we break into a new season, new shows are on the schedule, new endeavors are popping up, and it's really important to stay on top of things with calendars and such.  With that in mind, I'm going to post what I know is in store:

September 17th
Peace River Writers will host Open Mic 2
at Hava Java Grill in Port Charlotte, FL 
Featuring: Story Boyle and Kahala Lei

September 18th
Lynn Blue begins her season at www.blogtalkradio.com/lynnblue 
with co host: Leilani Maui
daughter of Kahala Lei from the Blood Money Poets

September 30th:
Kahala Lei takes the stage at Hava Java Grill
every Thursday night

Every Saturday:
From 11pm - 12am
Join Forevery Poetry with cohosts Anexis Angel and Kahala Lei
every Saturday night for a fun night of poetry!

Every Saturday:
From 11pm - 3am
Join Poetically Spoken with cohost Heart Spoken for great poetry and open mic until 1am.  After 1am, you will have the most romantic poetic experience with their Red Light Special that runs until 3am!

more to come...

01 September 2010

My Response to Obama's Address 8/31/2010

Upon listening to last night's 18 minutes of Obama, I rest my case.  He's not the idiot that people continuously put him up to be.  He has made so many changes that people don't give him enough credit for.  Obama warned us in the beginning of his presidency, that things would get worse before getting better.  They had to, as we are still suffering from the fruits of Bush's presidential term..  Here,  you may think that he's not doing a good job, but Obama has made so many positive changes... Now if we could only get people to understand that change is going to take time to come into fruition.

29 August 2010

WE'LL MISS YOU, DELL

Dag, man I'm shocked!




Don't know what to say



I wasn't prepared for the news



Didn't expect to read that today



Dell, it's been awhile



Since we last got together



Man always thought we'd



Squeeze another one in



Just one more concert,



BBQ or chill spot



The life of the party



My man Dell rocked!



One more thing



Before I end this scribe



Do the wave up in Heaven



Send your friends back a smile



Gone, but never forgotten



A true friend indeed



Full of laughter and fun



Rest in Peace



Odell Shogunn.







Sunset 8/28/2010

27 August 2010

The Spot

So tonight, I just happened to stumble across another artist's Blog Talk Radio show.  We support eachother's efforts via other sites and shows where we have crossed paths in the past.  I think she's a great person.  Her name is PARADYME.  Her show is called THE SPOT.  She is a very talented writer and a beautiful person from the inside out.
Tonight the show was about the education system, change for the future, and what we, as artists are going to do.  Her special guest was CATALINA BYRD of BALTIMORE.  Mannie the Poet buzzed in and Double G supported.  There were other artists there, of course, but here are the key players in the ring... or on the line.  We discussed what's going on now, the trends that have been, the Muslim Community Center near Ground Zero, etc.
Greatest Poet Alive, also known as GPA, stopped through on his personal challenge to do 30 days of poetry straight.  This was his 6th day.  I think I can speak on everyone's behalf when I say that we were blessed to have been a part of that!!! It was definitely a great honor!  GPA, if you read this, get back at me when you complete the mission!! Lol  I want to hear all about your journeys throughout this 30 days!  It would be a great conversation topic!! I'd be honored to write about THAT!!!
Back to the nation's issues at hand, our nation is divided, the people with the biggest mouths are the ones who are sitting ducks in this whole ordeal, and the rest of us need to ban together to put the unity back into the commUNITY.  Here's a poem that I read tonight, and I dedicate it to th enation as a whole... not to any specific demographic.

HOW DARE YOU, AMERICA!

HOW DARE YOU TAKE AWAY SOMEONE ELSE'S RIGHTS!
JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN'T ACCEPT A LOSING FIGHT
NOT ALL MUSLIMS HAVE ATTACKED OUR TOWERS
YOU REALLY THINK YOU DESERVE THAT MUCH POWER?
YOU BLAME OBAMA FOR ALL THAT HAS GONE WRONG
TO UNDO PAST PRESIDENTIAL MISTAKES,
YOU'D NEVER BE THAT STRONG
HALF OF THIS COUNTRY CAN'T EVEN GET TO WORK ON TIME
BECAUSE THEY WERE OUT TOO LATE DRINKING, A DUI CRIME
THE OTHER HALF WOULDN'T GET OUT OF BED, UNLESS FOR A DRUG
AND THIS IS THE MESS THAT YOU CHOOSE TO SWEEP UNDER A RUG?
YOU'RE NOT INFALLIBLE, THIS IS THE TEST THAT PROVES IT
YOU'D RATHER LAY DOWN AND DIE, BEFORE CONSIDERING
WALKING IN SOMEONE ELSE'S SHOES
YOUR IGNORANCE IS SICK, YOU NEED TO LOOK AT YOURSELF
STUDY YOUR HISTORY AND NURSE YOUR MENTAL BACK TO HEALTH
PUBLIC LAW 103 CLAIMS TO GIVE HAWAII BACK ITS LAND
AND CONGRESS STILL REFUSES THE AKAKA BILL AT HAND
I'M SO TIRED OF HEARING HOW PEOPLE SHOULD GO BACK WHERE THEY'RE FROM
THEN IN MY OPINION, SO SHOULD THE EUROPEAN MARCHING DRUM!
NOT ALL OF THE PEOPLE IN ANY RACE ARE BAD
BUT SO SEE MY NATION IN CONFLICT MAKES ME FEEL SAD.
I FORBID MY CHILDREN TO FIGHT FOR THIS PLACE
I'M EMBARASSED TO CALL AMERICA, MY RACE
QUIT COMPLAINING ABOUT THE MEXICANS TAKING YOUR JOBS
GET YOU ASS OFF THE COUCH AND GO TO WORK, YOU SLOB!
CRYING ALL THE TIME ABOUT THE CHINESE RATE OF SUCCESS
THEN GO WORK SEVEN DAYS, STOP THE BOO HOO'ING MESS!
AMERICA'S EDUCATION SYSTEM IS POORER THAN THE HOOD
WHAT, DO YOU THINK A COMPUTER ON A DESK MAKES IT GOOD?
IN JUST THE SAME FASHION THAT NOBODY CARED ABOUT
THE HOUSES BUILT UPON NATIVE GRAVES,
THE SAME WAY AMERICA SAYS TO FORGET BLACKS WERE ENSLAVED,
IS THE SAME WAY AMERICANS NEED TO GET OVER THIS MUSLIM OUTRAGE!
NOT EVERY MUSLIM IS A TERRORISTIC THREAT,
YOU'RE MORE OF A THREAT TO YOURSELF, I'LL BET
QUIT DRINKING ALL NIGHT, POPPING OXY'S AND SLEEPING ALL DAY
GET A REAL EDUCATION, STOP FACEBOOKING AT WORK, AND YOU TOO
COULD HAVE SOMETHING INTELLIGENT TO SAY.
SO BEFORE YOU DENY SOMEONE ELSE'S RIGHTS TO A WORSHIP PLACE
GET UP AND BE RESPONSIBLE, GET A JOB WORTH MORE THAN SAVING YOUR FACE.
THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH THE BUILDING OF THE MOSQUE, NEAR THE SCENE
DON'T YOU DARE DENY AMERICAN MUSLIMS THE AMERICAN DREAM!


We have some strong works that are known in many areas.  If you can point out any positive organizations, are affiliated with any, can post something of sustainance, please feel free to do so!! No negative vibes here, please. 

Thank you for stoppin bye!

26 August 2010

MMS LIFE BALANCE SOLUTIONS

FOR THOSE OF YOU THAT DO NOT KNOW ME, I AM A SINGLE MOTHER OF THREE.  I SPEND MOST OF MY DAY PLAYING MOM TAXI AND HOMEWORK HELPER. BEING A MOTHER WHO IS THERE FOR MY CHILDREN MAKES ME PROUD, HOWEVER IT ALSO PREVENTS ME FROM DOING OTHER THINGS THAT I NEED TO DO SUCH AS PROVIDE FOR THEM. SO...

TO OVERCOME THAT, I HAVE OPENED MY OWN BUSINESS THAT IS TRYING TO BECOME AN OFFICIAL LLC.  I LIKE TO CALL THIS COMPANY,
MMS LIFE BALANCE SOLUTIONS.

WHAT I DO AT MMS, IS HANDLE ANYTHING THAT YOU CAN'T.  WHETHER IT BE TO WALK A DOG OR FIX YOUR PLUMBING, FROM HOUSEKEEPING & CHILDCARE TO LAWNCARE OR RECORDS MANAGEMENT.  I CAN ALSO TAKE CARE OF YOUR TAXES AND HANDLE YOUR FILING, IF THAT'S WHAT YOU NEED.  YOU'RE ASKING ME HOW I CAN PROVIDE SUCH A MYRIAD OF SERVICES?  EASY AS PIE.  I HAVE MY OWN TEAM.  YOU CALL ME AND I HANDLE THE REST.

MMS LIFE BALANCE SOLUTIONS
941-343-3747

YOU KNOW, THERE'S MORE TO LIFE THAN JUST BARELY MAKING IT BY, AND THIS ONE ENDEAVOR DOESN'T ALWAYS CUT THE BILLS.  SO I HAD TO COME UP WITH A BACKUP PLAN.  LISTED BELOW, ARE ALL OF THE SIDE EFFORTS THAT I TRY TO DO TO HELP GET MY CHILDREN BY WITHOUT THEM MISSING A BEAT.  WITH ONE IN BAND, TWO IN BOYSCOUTS, AND TWO ALSO IN PERFORMING ARTS, THEIR BILLS CAN BE QUITE EXPENSIVE FOR ME TO KEEP UP WITH. 

GUIDED BY GOD VITAMIN COMPANY, KNOWN AS "HEALTHY GBG"
www.shopgbg.com/jennica001

THESE ARE NOT A RELIGIOUS VITAMIN HOWEVER, THE FOUNDER OF THIS COMPANY CALLS HIS COMPANY GBG, BECAUSE HE FELT THAT THIS COMPANY WAS HIS CALLING.
THE VITAMIN ITSELF IS CALLED "10 IN ONE"   THE 10 IN ONE VITAMIN COVERS UPTO 1000% OF YOUR DAILY NUTRITIONAL NEEDS OF VITAMINS AND MINERALS AND TASTES LIKE ORANGE JUICE.   IT IS A MONTHLY AUTOSHIP PRODUCT, SO THAT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REPLENISHED, JUST AS YOU ARE RUNNING OUT.  YOU NEED ONLY TAKE 1 OUNCE PER DAY.

MY TESTIMONY ON THIS?   I LOVE THE TASTE, AND IT GIVES ME TONS OF ENERGY.  SOME OF MY ACHES AND PAINS HAVE MINIMIZED, BUT MOST OF ALL, SINCE MY BODY IS LITERALLY NUTRITIONALLY BALANCED, I NO LONGER GO THROUGH BOUTS WITH MUSCLE CRAMPS (BETTER KNOWN AS CHARLIE HORSES) AND HEARTBURN.
BECAUSE WAS PRETTY HEALTHY TO BEGIN WITH, I CANNOT CLAIM ANY SPECIAL MIRACLES THAT SOUND TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE.. LOL
THE COMPANY ALSO GIVES YOU YOUR OWN URL WITH THE COMPANY, IN CASE YOU DECIDE TO RECOMMEND THE VITAMIN TO SOMEONE ELSE.  WHEN YOU DO, HAVE THEM BUY IT FROM YOUR URL, AND YOU GET A STIPEND FOR THE RECOMMENDATION, AND A PERCENTAGE OF THE SALE.  IT DOES TRICKLE DOWN AND THE PERCENTAGE STILL TRICKLES BACK UP TO YOU.  YES, YOU COULD DECIDE TO WORK THIS AS A NETWORK MARKETING JOB, BUT THE POINT IS THAT YOU DON'T HAVE TO, AND THERE ARE NO FEES FOR THE URL, WEBSITE OR MAINTENANCE.  IT IS SIMPLY AN OFFER THAT YOU CAN DO WHAT YOU WANT WITH IT.


MY INK SUPER STORE
http://kahalalei.inksuperstores.com/

THIS IS MY INK SHOP.  IT HAS INK FOR ALMOST ANY TYPE OF PRINTER OUT ON THE MARKET.  I ALSO HAVE ECOFRIENDLY INK.  IT IS CHEAP AND AFFORDABLE, YOU CAN CONTROL WHAT YOU ARE ORDERING AND KNOW THAT IT WILL BE THERE IN A TIMELY FASHION.
THIS IS ANOTHER COMPANY WHERE YOU CAN UTILIZE IT TO MAKE A FEW EXTRA BUCKS.  THE COST FOR THE SITE IS FREE, AND USING MY NAME AS YOUR REFERRING AGENT, WILL GET YOU AN AUTOMATIC $10 SIGN ON BONUS, AS I HAVE BEEN PRETTY SUCCESSFUL WITH IT.  WHERE IT ASKS YOU ABOUT THE REFERRING AGENT, SIMPLY PLUG IN "KAHALALEI".  YOUR $10 WILL GO DIRECTLY INTO YOUR ACCOUNT.


AVON
www.youravon.com/jchrupalyl

NEED I SAY ANYTHING ABOUT THIS ONE?  WHO DOESN'T KNOW ABOUT AVON?
EXCEPT TO SAY THAT I SELL ONLINE, AND RIGHT NOW, WHILE I AM NEW, ALL ORDERS THAT ARE PROCESSED ON MY PERSONAL PAGE ARE FREE SHIPPING, IF YOU TYPE IN

THE COUPON CODE:  FIRSTREP

THIS WILL ENSURE FREE SHIPPING, NO MATTER HOW LARGE OR SMALL YOUR ORDER IS.  IT IS A LIMITED TIME OFFER, AS I WILL ONLY BE A NEW REP FOR BUT SO LONG!

WELL, THAT'S ALL FOR NOW! I HOPE TO SEE YOU SOMEWHERE ON THIS WEB SOON!!

Smile

Smile
In the face of pain, smile
As you walk through the rain
Give up the struggle
Just enjoy your life
No matter how hard
Forget about the strife
Love is worth your all
Love without a name
People can hurt you deeply
But your love is what remains
So when you feel like
You've been pushed right out the door
Remember that you must smile
Because you've been through this before
Of course there's going to be
Days with ups and days with downs
But smile through it all
You are worth your crown.


Kahala Lei
Blood Money Poets
copyright 2010

Kahala Lei

Kahala Lei


Delicate Flower

Of heavenly love

Writing poetry

Divine shall be her legacy

With blessings from above

Intricate are her thoughts

The inner soul she etches

Skilled experiences from sketches

From a life she has once known

And of the seeds she has sown

Torn from childhood

Her dreams deferred

Survival was her life

New beginnings she has spurred

Once just known as Kahala, yet

Now known as Kahala Lei

Put the heavenly piece

Into what her name says

Bringing a new meaning

To her name

A heavenly spirit

Delicate blossoms of a fresh dawn

Lyrically driven to make a point

From what life has spawned

Passionately writing

About all she has seen

Meticulately creating a

Novel of reality and dreams

Knowing that this time

Her heart is too strong

To allow anyone to pull her down

She has waited too long

She will not be put on the ground

Pushing past withering

Her flower rose to the sunlight

Towering over the stalks of weeds

That tried her blossoming might

Beautiful is the foundation

Of this delicate flower's soul

She will sow the seeds of compassion

Lead her life with empathy

Never forget her roots

Because that's why

She is she.





Kahala Lei

Blood Money Poets

copyright ©2010

25 August 2010

Parenting 101

So you have this new little person who depends on you.  All of the things that mom used to say to you about being able to understand one day come to mind.  For days on end, all you hear is, "One day you'll understand. That's the day that you're going to apologize to me for all that you put me through!"
Deep down inside, you hope it isn't so.  Half of us wish that we never see half of the problems that our parents went through!

Well, I've got good news and bad news.  The good news is that with all of the "awareness classes" and "parenting classes" that are available these days, will assure that you don't go through half of that crap.
The bad news is that after these classes, you may feel refreshed for a few days, thinking, "Okay, I think I can handle. This is easy!"  Then comes the actual application of all those cute little techniques they taught you.
Do you hear the doomed music playing in the backround?  After a few nights, I started to think to myself about the new forms of abuse that have been invented throughout the years.  Did you know that tickling your child too much is a form of abuse? Yep.. apparantly, so is anything that makes the child pout.  Be careful when telling your child no in public.  No matter how much they're getting on your last nerve, be sure to say it firmly with a loving smile!

The problems that our generation will face as parents will be very different than that of our parents generation.  Now depending on where you love, the teachers will lay down the ground rules of your house for you.  If you live in Florida, this is especially true.  My children come home every day and tell me of new house rules, like they aren't allowed to do chores because their teachers said that their only concerns in life should be homework and play.  Really?  Watch out fo rthese little nuances. After several trips to the school every year, the teachers get the point, but by then, I have to reprogram the kids as well. Aahh.... the joys of parenthood!

Now, I tested these little tricks to see which were the most effective, and within legal boundaries.  When the baby is old enough to get around, constantly tell them, "If its not yours, don't touch it."  This is invaluable when they get older, if not immediately.  You want to mold their little minds, instead of calling little Johnny a bad boy, you want to say things like, " Bad boys do that.  Johnny, you're not bad, you're mommy's good boy!"   This will alleviate alot of negative behaviors also.

I really don't care what they say about your child should be able to read a book by the age of two.  This is ridiculous.  From birth until walking, I taught the kids love and basic life functions, like eating, hugging, etc.  I also would begin sitting them on the potty as soon as they were sitting on their own.  I did this every time I went potty.  For the most part, my kids potty trained themselves by the age of 18 months.  I also let them drink water from a soft top sippy cup, from the time they could hold their own bottle.  This was like a play item for them, until they grasped the idea.  I never had to train a child on cups and potties.  They naturally picked up on this from the day to day exercises.  Now as far as reading, I read to them everyday, but put more focus on the moral of the story.  This gave them a moral foundation.  I waited until three to really push the reading.  Of course, you point things out to them, but don't you want a child who can act accordingly?  There's no sense in having a child who can read, but is misbehaved and academically burnt out by kindergarden!

I will revisit this topic again, getting more in depth on some thoughts and practices.  As for now, i will call this a blog post and get some rest for the night.  I hope you enjoy all that you read!

18 August 2010

HOW DARE YOU, AMERICA

HOW DARE YOU TAKE AWAY SOMEONE ELSE'S RIGHTS!



JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN'T ACCEPT A LOSING FIGHT



NOT ALL MUSLIMS HAVE ATTACKED OUR TOWERS



YOU REALLY THINK YOU DESERVE THAT MUCH POWER?



YOU BLAME OBAMA FOR ALL THAT HAS GONE WRONG



TO UNDO PAST PRESIDENTIAL MISTAKES,



YOU'D NEVER BE THAT STRONG



HALF OF THIS COUNTRY CAN'T EVEN GET TO WORK ON TIME



BECAUSE THEY WERE OUT TOO LATE DRINKING, A DUI CRIME



THE OTHER HALF WOULDN'T GET OUT OF BED, UNLESS FOR A DRUG



AND THIS IS THE MESS THAT YOU CHOOSE TO SWEEP UNDER A RUG?



YOU'RE NOT INFALLIBLE, THIS IS THE TEST THAT PROVES IT



YOU'D RATHER LAY DOWN AND DIE, BEFORE CONSIDERING



WALKING IN SOMEONE ELSE'S SHOES



YOUR IGNORANCE IS SICK, YOU NEED TO LOOK AT YOURSELF



STUDY YOUR HISTORY AND NURSE YOUR MENTAL BACK TO HEALTH



PUBLIC LAW 103 CLAIMS TO GIVE HAWAII BACK ITS LAND



AND CONGRESS STILL REFUSES THE AKAKA BILL AT HAND



I'M SO TIRED OF HEARING HOW PEOPLE SHOUD GO BACK WHERE THEY'RE FROM



THEN IN MY OPINION, SO SHOULD THE EUROPEAN MARCHING DRUM!



NOT ALL OF THE PEOPLE IN ANY RACE ARE BAD



BUT SO SEE MY NATION IN CONFLICT MAKES ME FEEL SAD.



I FORBID MY CHILDREN TO FIGHT FOR THIS PLACE



I'M EMBARASSED TO CALL AMERICA, MY RACE



QUIT COMPLAINING ABOUT THE MEXICANS TAKING YOUR JOBS



GET YOU ASS OFF THE COUCH AND GO TO WORK, YOU SLOB!



CRYING ALL THE TIME ABOUT THE CHINESE RATE OF SUCCESS



THEN GO WORK SEVEN DAYS, STOP THE BOO HOO'ING MESS!



AMERICA'S EDUCATION SYSTEM IS POORER THAN THE HOOD



WHAT, DO YOU THINK A COMPUTER ON A DESK MAKES IT GOOD?



IN JUST THE SAME FASHION THAT NOBODY CARED ABOUT



THE HOUSES BUILT UPON NATIVE GRAVES,



THE SAME WAY AMERICA SAYS TO FORGET BLACKS WERE ENSLAVED,



IS THE SAME WAY AMERICANS NEED TO GET OVER THIS MUSLIM OUTRAGE!



NOT EVERY MUSLIM IS A TERRORISTIC THREAT,



YOU'RE MORE OF A THREAT TO YOURSELF, I'LL BET



QUIT DRINKING ALL NIGHT, POPPING OXY'S AND SLEEPING ALL DAY



GET A REAL EDUCATION, STOP FACEBOOKING AT WORK, AND YOU TOO



COULD HAVE SOMETHING INTELLIGENT TO SAY.



SO BEFORE YOU DENY SOMEONE ELSE'S RIGHTS TO A WORSHIP PLACE



GET UP AND BE RESPONSIBLE, GET A JOB WORTH MORE THAN SAVING YOUR FACE.



THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH THE BUILDING OF THE MOSQUE, NEAR THE SCENE



DON'T YOU DARE DENY AMERICAN MUSLIMS THE AMERICAN DREAM!

15 August 2010

Help Me Get Home

Well as an escape from domestic violence, my dad played the hero role in his F150 and brought myself and kids to Florida to start a new life.  Shortly there after, he didn't want to be here anymore and has gone back home, to Pennsylvania.  The general advice everyone gave me, was to stay here and give this place a chance, on my own.  Well, I can't make a living here.  Just as Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz found out, so did I:  THERE'S NO PLACE LIKE HOME. 

I have been depressed since I've been here, convincing myself that it was because of the situation, not where I am.  But the truth is, that as of September 3rd, I have officially been here for 3 years.  I think I gave this place a fair chance.  So far, 98% of the people that I thought I made friends with, were NOT friends.
I have no personal connection with a soul.  Jobs are either scarce, or when you find one.... well let's not talk about that and say we did.

At this point, I'd sacrifice  my leg, to go home. (Well I might need it to drive, but just saying...)
I am struggling just like everyone else, but alone with my kids.  I have found numerous jobs back home, in Pennsylvania, however I lack transportation and destination. 

I'm not asking for a hand out from anyone.  Lord knows that we all need to hold onto what we have.
But I am asking for you to check out either of my sites and purchase a product.  I promise you that these are things that you need on a daily basis.

www.shopgbg.com/jennica001 This is the most wonderful and wholesome vitamin I have ever taken, hence the fact that I am actually selling it as well. Anyone who knows me, knows that I don't sell things that can't sell themselves.  Not even in a retail store.  If I don't personally believe in the product that I am selling, I will not sell it. Check out the stats on this liquid multivitamin that contains a full day's dosage of what your body needs to function properly.  the site will explain further into detail.  The vitamin tastes like no pulp orange juice.

http://www.kahalalei.inksuperstores.com/  This is your basic printer ink shop.  I think it covers about 97% of inks compatible with your system.  Eco friendly as well

Both sites are free businesses to start.  All you have to do is tell people about it.

Thank you for your support!