He Loves Me

Just when one thinks there's no way out

Life has a way of killing that doubt

Journeys get dark, then fall into light

Things fall into place where nothing seems right.

At one point in time I thought that he hated me

In what turned out to be growing pains

Of a beautiful season birthed in spring blossoms

Glorious mornings awaited the moment to

Seize opportunity to flourish.

3.8 GPA from a young man once failing school

Responsibility conquers being cool

What was rebellion at the dawn of eighteen

Becomes the rebirth of Mom's hopeful dream.

In so many ways I thought his choices might sway

So many nights spent worrying about his future

Where would this one end up?

What was this kid going to do?

So many questions boggled my mind.

I had to let him go and let what will be, be

Deep down inside, the anguish killed me

Thoughts of my child choosing a path astray

Dimmed my spirit day after day.

Observing his ways and what he would choose

Personal memories, I'd do anything to be in his shoes

If only I had someone to help develop me

I would not have had to grow up in the streets

I would not have had to make the choices I made

I would not have experienced such icy shade

If only I had the foundation I gave my kids

I may not have had the urgency to do what I did.

From the stories they have heard over the years about me

My life is nothing they ever would envy

So deep in his heart, my son knew why

He had a choice to make, it better be right.

He didn't want to ever think of things turning back

To our humble beginnings and how hard we worked

To overcome the consequences of generations in past

He agreed with me that change was past due

But he kept that to himself until

His thoughts were scattered, he just needed time.

In his needing time, he pushed me away

A whole new stage of life had to be set

A whole new existence to be discovered

And he loves me. 

He loves his mother

Honors her dream

That our lineage would never return

To those humbled beginnings of

Past generational choices that

Led to the beginnings we endured

He vows to assure that our family stays tight

He vows to assure that we'd get it right.

He dedicates his days to books, class and school

He looks forward to his path with sparks of delight

Mom knows she's loved, finally something is right.

He loves me

I know that today

All my needs are met

Thank You Karmatic Entities.

Kahala Lei

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