Just when one thinks there's no way out
Life has a way of killing that doubt
Journeys get dark, then fall into light
Things fall into place where nothing seems right.
At one point in time I thought that he hated me
In what turned out to be growing pains
Of a beautiful season birthed in spring blossoms
Glorious mornings awaited the moment to
Seize opportunity to flourish.
3.8 GPA from a young man once failing school
Responsibility conquers being cool
What was rebellion at the dawn of eighteen
Becomes the rebirth of Mom's hopeful dream.
In so many ways I thought his choices might sway
So many nights spent worrying about his future
Where would this one end up?
What was this kid going to do?
So many questions boggled my mind.
I had to let him go and let what will be, be
Deep down inside, the anguish killed me
Thoughts of my child choosing a path astray
Dimmed my spirit day after day.
Observing his ways and what he would choose
Personal memories, I'd do anything to be in his shoes
If only I had someone to help develop me
I would not have had to grow up in the streets
I would not have had to make the choices I made
I would not have experienced such icy shade
If only I had the foundation I gave my kids
I may not have had the urgency to do what I did.
From the stories they have heard over the years about me
My life is nothing they ever would envy
So deep in his heart, my son knew why
He had a choice to make, it better be right.
He didn't want to ever think of things turning back
To our humble beginnings and how hard we worked
To overcome the consequences of generations in past
He agreed with me that change was past due
But he kept that to himself until
His thoughts were scattered, he just needed time.
In his needing time, he pushed me away
A whole new stage of life had to be set
A whole new existence to be discovered
And he loves me.
He loves his mother
Honors her dream
That our lineage would never return
To those humbled beginnings of
Past generational choices that
Led to the beginnings we endured
He vows to assure that our family stays tight
He vows to assure that we'd get it right.
He dedicates his days to books, class and school
He looks forward to his path with sparks of delight
Mom knows she's loved, finally something is right.
He loves me
I know that today
All my needs are met
Thank You Karmatic Entities.
Kahala Lei
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