This One's For Me

This is a moment just for me. This isn't about gloating.  This isn't about being self-centered.  It's about realizing what truly is within me, after some storms have weighed me down. Like I said, completely for myself, on my own blog, published for myself to see. No need throw target shots at me.  You can't ever do any more damage than what my history has afforded me. 

 I am pleased to announce that I have satisfactorily witnessed my heart and my voice being heard loud and clear by people everywhere.

How does this feel?  Absolutely amazing with a side dish of "hey... did I just get ripped off again?"

Every leadership manual will tell you about the four temperaments and which are the most effective forms of leadership. There was one that I hoped to become, if I wasn't that leader yet.  

However, I have always been a strong leader, a strong advocate who just didn't back down.  It often got me scoldings to which I would usually respond with the quote,  "Tell me how bad I am, it makes me feel so good."   Sounds like a certified bad-ass may have said that, but I was more of a rebellious goodie-2shoe who could never follow an order without my "why" being answered.  I was immovable, if my authority was in the wrong.  That behavior often got me a special seat at the family beating - you know, that first 10 minutes after the family left a public event?  Yeah, that one.  I don't think anyone spoke the same language in our house, because words seemed to be spoken clearly in the leather belt language.  I was usually blushed for hours, after those family meetings.

Everything I have been working without a team to create, is what others who are in better circumstances do.  A part of me is insulted, but the larger part of me is starting to count and without ever having to do anything myself, all my work is being done! 

All I have had to do was say the word and people move.  I don't want to give myself examples because that is getting petty, but I did run out of fingers to count! 

This is really exciting when I think of it, because it is an effortless task for me.  Mahalo Ke Akua

I don't really have any good words to describe how I feel inside because I am not used to sharing, which is what I have a blog for - to practice.  I have always been on my own with a shit ton of responsibility and no help, but tons of good ideas.  I can easily share information, but what's on my heart, chokes my words. 

Well, if I can inspire an entire lahui to move in the best direction, then the work is being done without my having to do much of anything. Maybe I right to have faith in the fact that one person can change the world.  People always ask me what one person can do.  To that, my answer is a lot.  But I know that I will raise hell until I can change the world. But the world will be changed and it will be better.  We will save it and Ke Akua will once again restore our Kingdom.   

Mahalo  Ke Akua  Mahalo

Kahala Lei

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