Where Flowers Don't Belong

When you decided you wanted to be in my life

Was it all roses you saw?  

Did you picture me your wife?

When you decided you wanted me in your life

Was it only after dark?

Was it only from pity of the poor single mom?

Yeah, life's a struggle

I'm not gonna paint flowers where they don't belong

Main thing I know is that I gotta be strong.

Sometimes sexy is overrated and my body just needs some rest

Would you be willing to wait a night so tomorrow I can give my best?

Would you be there right by my side when my face is in defeat?

Would you admit that its me you love, when they ask you in the streets?

Would you be there to share my victories?

Or is it only after dark, that you see the woman in me?

Each time I hear your voice, my heart skips a beat

Each time I see that truck, my world spins around

But when you walk in the house, its not me that you see

Its everything else that surrounds me

From one thing to another, your attention's already been spent

My window of opportunity to capture your heart has just left

With my hopes of sharing memories with you, all spent.

Every question that I ask is met with questions why

Makes me feel like you're an unapproachable guy

Makes me feel much smaller than I am

To be wanted more when I am awake

Or poised in perfect position for the taking

Anything but the parts of me awake

I'm not gonna paint flowers where they don't belong

Main thing I know is that I gotta be strong.

When you decided you wanted to be in my life

Was it all thorns you saw?

Did you picture an ocean without waves?

When you decided you wanted me in your life

Was it only an affair?

Part time loving when you have time to spare?

I'm not gonna paint flowers where they don't belong

With or without, every bird sings a song

Sometimes I hear the birds, so careless and free

Sometimes I only hear when the caged bird sings

All the I want is love from you

An occasional spin to see stars upon vast skies

An occasional kiss when you say goodbye

An occasional text that says who you love

But never those ugly things I have been accused of.

Not because of anything considered pride

I can carry my own share of weight

I can handle what percentage I partake

I can handle my own affairs because I have

Done it for all these years alone

Without a man, without a team of support

I have done all I need to continue forward

I have made it upto now

I will continue to make it somehow

This somehow is all I have ever done before

And if need it be, I'll do it once more. 

I don't really know how or where I stand

Why wind and rain have been tormenting the land

Why things went the way they did although I'm glad

That's the cleansing waters of baptism we just had.

Now either we'll make it or discover we're wrong

But either way, this caged bird sings a song

A song for hope, a song in need, a song for all indeed

A song that sings of a bitter past, and that 

My sunshine has come at last.

Here at last, I sing this song

I don't know whether we're right or wrong

All I know is that I'm scared of what's to come

By the looks of the past, I hope not again

I'd rather be standing alone in the rain

I'm not gonna paint flower where they don't belong

I'm only gonna do what it takes to make it through the song

Whether it ends in love or tragedy

Nobody can be there for me, but me

At the end of the day, it's nobody's responsibility

So I can only be responsible for just one me

I can only control what I can do

And that says nothing about me and you

All it says is that I got my back

Because I never know when it's going to go off track

I just don't know about much anymore

I only know that there's been greater storms

I only know how to sing in my words

I can only make sure I don't play in the dirt

Because I don't want to ever again be hurt

I don't want to ever feel pain

No, not like this ever again

Not like that coldest night ever

Not even in this tropical weather

I can't keep hurting like this

I'm falling apart, my midnight is near

Alone in the darkness, to discern what's to fear

No matter what, I've got to be strong

With or without you, I've got to move on

Although if I had a choice, it wouldn't be alone

That won't be a first and I know it can be done.

I ain't painting flowers where they don't belong

But every bird has his own symphonic song.

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