When you decided you wanted to be in my life
Was it all roses you saw?
Did you picture me your wife?
When you decided you wanted me in your life
Was it only after dark?
Was it only from pity of the poor single mom?
Yeah, life's a struggle
I'm not gonna paint flowers where they don't belong
Main thing I know is that I gotta be strong.
Sometimes sexy is overrated and my body just needs some rest
Would you be willing to wait a night so tomorrow I can give my best?
Would you be there right by my side when my face is in defeat?
Would you admit that its me you love, when they ask you in the streets?
Would you be there to share my victories?
Or is it only after dark, that you see the woman in me?
Each time I hear your voice, my heart skips a beat
Each time I see that truck, my world spins around
But when you walk in the house, its not me that you see
Its everything else that surrounds me
From one thing to another, your attention's already been spent
My window of opportunity to capture your heart has just left
With my hopes of sharing memories with you, all spent.
Every question that I ask is met with questions why
Makes me feel like you're an unapproachable guy
Makes me feel much smaller than I am
To be wanted more when I am awake
Or poised in perfect position for the taking
Anything but the parts of me awake
I'm not gonna paint flowers where they don't belong
Main thing I know is that I gotta be strong.
When you decided you wanted to be in my life
Was it all thorns you saw?
Did you picture an ocean without waves?
When you decided you wanted me in your life
Was it only an affair?
Part time loving when you have time to spare?
I'm not gonna paint flowers where they don't belong
With or without, every bird sings a song
Sometimes I hear the birds, so careless and free
Sometimes I only hear when the caged bird sings
All the I want is love from you
An occasional spin to see stars upon vast skies
An occasional kiss when you say goodbye
An occasional text that says who you love
But never those ugly things I have been accused of.
Not because of anything considered pride
I can carry my own share of weight
I can handle what percentage I partake
I can handle my own affairs because I have
Done it for all these years alone
Without a man, without a team of support
I have done all I need to continue forward
I have made it upto now
I will continue to make it somehow
This somehow is all I have ever done before
And if need it be, I'll do it once more.
I don't really know how or where I stand
Why wind and rain have been tormenting the land
Why things went the way they did although I'm glad
That's the cleansing waters of baptism we just had.
Now either we'll make it or discover we're wrong
But either way, this caged bird sings a song
A song for hope, a song in need, a song for all indeed
A song that sings of a bitter past, and that
My sunshine has come at last.
Here at last, I sing this song
I don't know whether we're right or wrong
All I know is that I'm scared of what's to come
By the looks of the past, I hope not again
I'd rather be standing alone in the rain
I'm not gonna paint flower where they don't belong
I'm only gonna do what it takes to make it through the song
Whether it ends in love or tragedy
Nobody can be there for me, but me
At the end of the day, it's nobody's responsibility
So I can only be responsible for just one me
I can only control what I can do
And that says nothing about me and you
All it says is that I got my back
Because I never know when it's going to go off track
I just don't know about much anymore
I only know that there's been greater storms
I only know how to sing in my words
I can only make sure I don't play in the dirt
Because I don't want to ever again be hurt
I don't want to ever feel pain
No, not like this ever again
Not like that coldest night ever
Not even in this tropical weather
I can't keep hurting like this
I'm falling apart, my midnight is near
Alone in the darkness, to discern what's to fear
No matter what, I've got to be strong
With or without you, I've got to move on
Although if I had a choice, it wouldn't be alone
That won't be a first and I know it can be done.
I ain't painting flowers where they don't belong
But every bird has his own symphonic song.
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