Once upon a time you used to be my world
Once upon a time I dreamt of bring your girl
Once upon a time I had respect for you
And I supported everything that you wanted to do.
Today its not the same I love me for me
Iʻm not too fat to manifest my destiny
Iʻm not too ugly to do the work
But by your side, I wonʻt let me be hurt.
We set our goals, our goals to achieve
No where in that was a hint of you and me
No where in that time did I disrespect you
I equally didnʻt require to be with you.
The love in my heart had not a name
I didnʻt need relationship, just to be one in the same
One in the same, meaning the directions you gave
Iʻd left that relationship nonsense at its own grave.
The love in my heart was pure and true
I was loyal, I did what asked, I was helpful to you
But none of that came from you to me
I was the object of your mind fuckery.
You seem to take pride in taking my all
You laugh at my pain, you make me crawl
And all for what did I ever give to you?
Humility, forgiveness and all my work too.
My love never said that we had to be.
But stay out of my personal, if you donʻt want me.
Donʻt punch my boyfriends, stop controlling my life
You donʻt want me, but I will be somebodyʻs wife.
I donʻt care for revenge, Iʻve no time for hate.
Thereʻs also no time for you, so please go dissipate.
Do all the things you said alone you could do
Make yourself happy with the things that you do.
But Iʻm not responsible for your success
Iʻm just that old mat where your feet used to rest.
That old mat that used to be by the door
The one you threw away, you didnʻt need it anymore.
Iʻm that old mat, useless now to you
Yet you complain that your work I donʻt do
You complain about a lack of unity
But when I remained united, you bad-mouthed me.
You complain about everything that makes me, me
But you want me to continue to work for you for free
You continue to expect me to bow down at your side
While you exacerbate me via false pride
I no longer can be put down so low
No matter what rights I donʻt have
I have the right to survive
You have no say in that, so good-bye.
You no longer have control of my life
Remember what I am to you, nothing but strife.
Keep in mind that you consistently seek me
I donʻt chase you, no more reasons to speak.
Remember how you intentionally continued to hurt me
Remember the things you said about me in the streets
Remember how I still chose loyalty to your needs
No matter how many accusations you pushed upon me.
Remember those things, youʻll face them again
Not with me but before your life ends
Remember that I still wonʻt respond to that
And if I saw you getting hurt, Iʻd still have your back
But just you keep in mind, that today I love me
Iʻm not going to keep hurting about something not worthy
Iʻm not going to spend my life suffering and working for free
Iʻm too busy raising my own life and family.
I think Iʻm beautiful, whether you do or not
I know my worth, something you must have forgotten
No more worries about catering to you
No more free work that often goes unappreciated too.
No more being taken for granted
No more being put down
And when work plans are made, theyʻll be seen through
Because my work is not subject to your abusive coup
When you see me in the streets, forget who I am
Forget that you knew me, never mind whoʻs my man
Thatʻs none of your business, youʻre so full of hate
But Iʻm gone forever, from you I emancipate.
You canʻt put me down, I wonʻt work for free
I certainly will no longer subject myself to your toxicity.
From this point forward, I am free to be me.
Kahala Maui
copyright October 2018
