Featured Writer: Miyoko Azuma - Abused Disbelief

Sixty-four days and still loving you..

How can that be?

You’ve lied every time

You said you loved me.

“If I should leave, you’ll never see me again”

Words you once said.

Now you stick around

Just to play with my head.

Laughing, it’s so funny…

What a joke you must feel,

I wish you all the luck finding

Another, who’s real.

I can’t fix things now,

I’m already gone.

Like you said, I’m nineteen

Guess I’ve got to get on.

I’m hurt and lonely

Can’t hide my tears.

I’ll remember your scars

For so many years.

My first night completely alone,

I’d rather not think.

I keep looking down the street,

Just to take a peek.

You’re there all the time

With your thugged out friends

You never did come home,

Until your street day met its end.

You’d start to complain,

When I’d get upset.

Did you ever think of how

My day was spent?

I come home from work

Just to cook and clean

When you didn’t show for dinner

You’d wonder why I was mean.

I enslaved every day

I did it for what?

You only come home to

Play games & not give a fuck.

Now I’m hurt and sad

While you have fun, don’t feel bad

I’m a hell of a woman

I deserve a lot better

Rainy days just pass by

I need sunny weather.

In writing this poem,

I’ve concluded a lot.

Either love me or leave me

I’m worth the thought.

Miyoko Azuma

Written 7 September 1996