Fired & Inspired

inspired by the life i was given


to make the best of how i was livin

gave me understanding of what could be

a comprehension beyond you and me

i followed the word as i knew it

i tried so hard

so many times i blew it

yet God gave me another chance

to prove to me

i was worth that 2nd glance

i struggled, now i'm finally free

to enjoy a lifetime of

opportunity

to make the choices set before me

i'm choosing to get many degrees

to maximize my fidelities

tired of the past i've known

so full of life sentences & necrologies

why would i serve a life behind bars?

what purpose could i serve, my brains blown to mars

wacked out on the same thing that broke my family?

naw, dog.. that wouldn't be me

i deserve a life far better than that

i deserve to hear music, not

rat a tat tat

i deserve to be happy

watchin my family grow

i deserve more than that,

you just don't know



i'm not here to say

what you already know

i'm tellin my story, so i can let it go

i'm tellin you all

that i have deep inside

i'm sayin it now, so you

understand my pride

i'm proud to have survived the eye

of the worst of life storms

i survived abuses and family oriented scorn

i've survived the hood

and what's not so good

i've survived, although i'm worn

i don't care how you judge me now

talk all you want

but you'd never know how

i made it through those dying times,

imagine not eating, then walking the march of dimes?

imagine a winter so very cold

no shoes for your feet

no jacket or coat to make your outfit complete

no way to get to school

yet you still strived to go

only to get kicked out

and left in the snow

imagine your mother didn't love you a bit

do you think you could have easily

survived this?



i made it out

but i don't know how

i guess God's good graces

are what bailed me out

i guess those footprints in the snow

must have been His

mine were cold even though

imagine hiding the fact that

you lived on the streets

imagine having potential





no avenue to to make beats?

imagine not having a friend on your back

imagine that, how would you act?

during those years

i was a savage beast

when my tummy stayed empty,

that beast got released

when my feelings got hurt

so did your face

because i had a death wish

to get out of that place

embarassed for years of

just who i was

no mother, no father

no one i could trust

no family, no roots

just me in the streets

now although i struggle, my life's more complete

all i need now is to learn to believe

in myself and the things i could conceive

a thought a dream,

to me it never occurred

that i'd actually survive

that childhood absurd



Thank you Jesus!!

i''ve survived the storm

i'm far from that place,

my babies are warm.

i'm far from abused,

i'm far from that place

life's much better now

its a life i can embrace .
 
 
Kahala Lei
Blood Money Poets
copyright 2010